Thursday, November 20, 2008
it has been reali long since i last posted..
and i keep thinking and thinking of updating.. and i know of the things that i want to update abt.. but now when i plant myself into the blogging mode.. suddenly my mind blanks out to an extent..
okay.. this is one part in which i rmb.. ever since wat was lyk 3weeks ago or smt.. i must say that the world is reali small.. meeting ppl here.. meeting ppl dere.. and best of all.. 1S02 ppl! ((= first it was yang outside century square.. and i was carrying boxes.. for pw OP.. so unsightly la.. and oh ya! thats what i wan2blog abt too.. lol.. okay.. anyways.. den it was xy.. at tampines mall mos burger at basement 1! i was eating dere.. but she was taking away cos dere weren't any more seats.. and we chatted for quite abit... and finally it was the knees..=P but where else but j8.. it's most of the time there that i wld meet her.. and she looked quite different! from all the canoeing trainings and all.. and these 3 meetings.. they were reali quite equally spaced out among each other.. and they all happened just when i was thinking back at going out wif 1S02 ppl.. so it reali was quite amazing..
but reali alot has been happening.. loads and loads of stuff on my mind.. and everyone is so caught up wif their own lives.. schedules and commitments.. that reali makes it difficult for us to arrange a common time to meet.. and shawn cld leave me wif that responsibility of arranging an outing.. lyk thx lor! hardly hear things frm ppl liao ler.. and yeah.. it's reali nt tt easy..
it reali wld b quite lag to talk about this right now.. but i think i still wld.. to me.. OP was a great success to me.. disregarding any thing that might discourage this statement.. okay.. perhaps nt great success.. but yeah.. success.. it ended off nicely.. and im rather proud of my grp.. CJ092! much as tho there were plenty of rough patches that we had to go through together.. the amount of effort we put in.. sleepless nights.. blood.. sweat.. tears.. they are all jus a part of us.. we went through thick and thin as much as we cld together.. and im reali thankful and appreciative of all efforts that were put in together into this entire project.. putting aside everything that happened b4 op.. let's just talk about op.. come to think of it.. each of us contributed to our op significantly in our own ways.. let's jus begin wif donny.. the whole video is lyk his own effort.. wif some help frm joy in the beginning of cos.. and yeah.. he's reali good wif the video aspect.. and joy.. wif her artistic talents.. props.. drawings.. yeah.. weifeng.... has wacky and interesting ideas.. cheers the grp up along wif joy when either of them jus gets high for some unclear reason.. and as for km.. the skit.. he's the director.. and he's very much the dramatic wan of our grp.. doing a great job in his role in the skit.. having to demean his self-esteem.. haha.. all in all.. it reali was cool.. everyone did what dey cld.. it's smt lyk everyone had their area of expertise.. wld just lyk to express my heartfelt thanks to cj092.. thx for being such a wonderful and cooperative grp.. ((=
and so the next big thing was the guitar seminar on the 17th.. it was quite an eye-opening seminar.. learnt quite alot of useful stuff.. but one thing nt to forget is the amt of trouble we took to get there lor.. having to ask directions frm all sorts of ppl.. and nt jus dat.. getting contradicting replies as well.. lyk completely weird lorr.. in the end.. keith to the rescue.. who confirmed wif us the direction and which stop to alight.. lol.. met 2 ppl whom i didn reali expect to meet there.. excluding one whom i alr knew i was going to meet.. lol.. i met matthaeus and marvin.. it was reali a small world! lyk one frm my own church and the other whom i got to know through km's cell.. simply amazing.. after which it was back to sch to put down the footstools which we didn need to use at all.. and in the end we didn need any scores as well! so happy i lightened my load.. went down to city hall to meet a few others and we had dinner together at shokudo! and it was wat they called guitar outing 001.. lol.. had a fun time dere.. talking to each other.. eating.. and jus hanging out together.. u know how it all falls into place.. =)
then the next day.. it was extra practice for guitar and we ordered in mac as a rare treat for ourselves.. lol.. lyk suddenly guitar ppl bcome rich or smt.. but apparently not the case.. and so the fries were all mixed together.. no straws.. and no sauces.. yup.. dat wan.. i neglected it... so yup.. paiseh..
not to forget 1T21 chalet and 6/1 chalet! those 2were reali stuff tt kept me busy for practically the whole week.. lol.. didn't stay over on both nights for 21 chalet.. cos we had guitar practice in the morning and it wld b rather mafan to carry it.. so yup.. second night i stayed though.. got only abt 3 hrs of slp.. yep.. but i cldn't expect more.. first day wasn't reali dere much.. just know that they played soccer.. and went overnight cycling.. the bbq was a bit messy cos we underestimated the amount of food.. and den we overestimated.. lol.. second night by the time we reached dere was rather late.. held back by collecting my new passport and rain.. yeah... weather was horrible.. lol.. played wif sparklers and party poppers at the park.. sat and emo-ed at the breakwater for awhile.. before heading back to the chalet.. intended to watch the sunrise on the last morning.. but when we walked out of the chalet.. it was lyk gonna rain.. wif lightning flashing all over the place.. so we didnt wan2take the risk.. had breakfast at the nearby foodcourt while the rest was still sleeping lol.. but cldn't blame them.. guess dey didn't slp much the prev night..
and so after packing up and all.. me and km moved over to 6/1 chalet.. lol.. 2consecutive chalets.. or rather dey did overlap.. so i stayed on the last night there as well.. but due to the little number of ppl.. i think it wld hav been more fun.. we played burnout/dynasty warrior etc on hx's ps2.. and we mahjongged quite crazily.. altho it definitely wld hav gotten more crazy.. but bcos i definitely needed rest otherwise i sure die during practise the nxt morning.. and true enough i nearly did.. i guess the most memorable thing was the bbq.. we had so much fun cooking.. playing wif food.. lyk lol.. yeah.. we shldn't.. but we honestly had too much.. we had fun experimenting potatoes.. we wrapped dem in aluminium foil and literally put them over and around the burning charcoal.. and haha..only 3 survived wif nice colour.. much thanks to hongyi who booked the chalet and went through efforts to get this organised.. and pinhui huaxin deejee and justin.. who made my night there a pleasant and enjoyable wan.. jus abit wasted didn go on the first day and get to see all e old frens.. reali miss u guys alot! (=
now perhaps the more impt things on my mind now are the ocip and guitar stuffs.. sometimes jus can't help but drift off into emo-ness.. and if any of u know how emo-ing is lyk.. u jus let yourself sink deeper and deeper..
and dere i wld find myself struggling to pull myself up.. and efforts wld b futile cos im lyk entirely overpowered.. but yeah.. it wld jus take time for me to snap out of it..
to end off my post.. jus a few verses frm the bible..
"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable and perfect, will of God... " Romans 12:2
"Not that I speak in respect of what I want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state that I am, therewith to be content" Philippians 4:11
(12:11 AM)
Friday, November 07, 2008
the world..
just imagine me lifting my hands into the sky...
hoping that rain will fall down on me...
and just cover me and drown me or smt..
today was the day.. THE day.. where everyone's fate for next year wld be sealed.. and i must sae.. it reali was entirely emotional for everyone.. being a class and all.. and seeing some of us are down.. it's just like everyone else is affected as well..
and sometimes u just feel completely helples..
like u want to do something.. for the ppl around u.. but there u are.. staring into blank space..
and perhaps u jus even can't b dere.. due to unforseen circumstances..
lyk when will understanding and deception co-exist?
lyk when will the world achieve full understanding of each other..
i reali have lots more to say..
it's just that my mind is so so heavy now..
with thoughts and thoughts just running through my head.. flooding and racing through my mind..
show me the way.. lead me on.. and guide me through..
(11:12 PM)