Sunday, September 07, 2008
and it has been super long since i last posted.. lol..
kinda at a loss of wat to say.. but yeah.. alot has happened.. alot is happening.. and alot is going to happen.. wait.. dat so didn't make sense.. it's even quite pointless i said it..
have been meeting up wif ling quite alot.. and on a frequent basis.. having spent so much time together.. it reali makes me feel alot.. yep.. the studying sessions.. and the movie! reali enjoyed it! had so much laughter from it too.. haha.. yup.. u shld noe... ((=
another record has been broken again! in my life.. meeting up for 6 consecutive days! hahas.. it's reali quite a feat.. *wink!*
looking back at the holidays.. that have reali flew past.. i honestly don't know what i have been doing.. losing my bearings.. needing a compass.. and perhaps a map?
what i know is that the moment sch starts again.. reali gonna hav much much lesser time for the com.. nt to mention blogging.. and so this post will be quite a huge wan.. talking alot.. rambling on and on.. if i can even rmb all the stuff that i want to ramble about.. hope it just flows out naturally..
i actually thought of a new way to actually start posting my posts.. of cos i wld talk abt the usual stuff.. stuff that happens in the past week or so.. after that i wld b giving myself one word.. and i'll just talk and talk and talk everything about it.. and this being the last post that i wld b posting b4 promos.. i reali wonder how long it wld be.. (eh don't blame me la.. reali nid to conc. liao ler lor!!)
so today.. at 12:49AM! the word of the day is "FRIENDSHIP".. no need to go into the definition do we..? if there's a nid for any of u.. go flip the dictionary la.. -.-
okay.. friendship.. wait.. b4 i start.. of cos everything is my own thoughts abt it.. u can choose to disagree.. or rebutt.. im fine wif it.. just no violent tendencies ya.. okay..
so friendship.. a word that talks abt smt that is so special.. so unique in itself.. exquisite? significant and important.. but yet fragile.. selective.. deceptive.. demanding? u might sae.. it's obviously based on how one looks at things.. i wld sae thats rather true too.. but then look back and see.. how much does friendship mean to someone like you? or how much can friendship mean to someone like you?
friendships arise from various situations.. and how it progresses on further is all arnd the same.. like talking to each other.. spending time wif one another.. doing things together.. it's all part and parcel of building up a friendship.. but yet again.. the approaches that one takes towards a particular friendship is all different.. u can even classify friendship into various levels.. but is tt reali necessary? perhaps....
fair-weather frens? otherwise known as hi-bye frens.. accquaintances? oh wait.. dats nt reali frens is it? nvm.. how abt frens who don't talk at all but acknowledge u when they walk past u and see u? and den u hv normal friends.. gd friends.. close friends.. best friends? buddies? (yeah.. PUBs! =) but whats the whole idea in classifying? so tt u know who'll stand a higher priority? who u shld spend more time wif? who will stick wif u through thick and thin? and those who will ignore u when u're in need of help? or those who'll shun u away in some situation or another?
seems almost inevitable that all this is happening.. there is no way u cld regard everyone and anyone on the same level as everyone and anyone else? (wait did tt make sense to u?) okay.. let's pick out a few words tt i used just nw and elaborate..
friendship is exquisite.. special..? bcos u see the same fren of yours treating u differently frm the way he/she might treat other ppl.. and den you're lyk hmm.. but when u get someone treating u so much differently frm the rest.. u get the personal kinda feeling? and u just feel so much into the friendship bcos u know u're greatly appreciated as a fren.. u're very much felt for as a reali good friend..
friendship is also fragile.. bcos one word.. or one thing that u sae or do can dash the hopes of a friendship that cld b built over a period of 5, 10, 20, even 30 years? and ya.. ppl always say that it takes a lifetime to build a friendship/relationship this deep.. this close.. but all it takes is one second or 2 to enable everything and anything to fall apart.. to crumble down.. and you will b so crippled by the impact.. and you'll just feel a sense of emptiness inside of u.. and u wld even b wondering if the other party knows exactly what he/she did to u..
friendship is deceptive.. u nvr know when your fren might betray u.. or back-stab u.. or probably to him that is far frm wats happening.. but to you.. u so strongly feel that he/she has let u down..
friendship is deceptive cos u'll nvr know wat your fren is saying or wat your fren is doing is actually the truth.. or the way he behaves.. the way he talks.. everything is jus uncertain.. in dis case.. obviously he wun b one of the high level friends.. but then again.. why do ppl hav to b deceptive? is there reali a nid to put on a mask.. lyk why? is it reali tat necessary in this world? then again.. perhaps..
friendship can also b demanding.. it can consume u to a pt that u feel tired u're actually maintaining a friendship.. tho these kinda situations may b few.. or minority.. but ya.. it does happen.. and dis can very much arise frm situations when one party feels disconnected frm all the link dere is in the friendship.. or over time of nt talking to each other or even spending time wif each other.. high chances are.. the friendship is strained.. and how very often wld anyone at all want this to happen to any of your friendships? but can it reali reali be helped? sighs..
sometimes whats the point of being so in-depth? or whats the point in revealing your heartfelt emotions.. wld anyone.. or wld the other person actually experience the depth.. and know what your heart's thoughts? is the exact same feeling frm your heart.. conveyed to the other person? i believe much is lost.. even though u may say it wif so much emotions.. or actions.. yeah.. u know how actions speak louder than words? but do dey speak better? i seriously doubt...
okay.. side-tracking for awhile.. i forgot to mention that i actually slept over at km's house on thurs night to fri morning.. just to do wr.. and bcos we nided to get it done by friday.. and so we literally chionged.. and bcos km didn sleep much the past night.. he threw in the towel at 4.. and halfway while i still carried on doing it.. the thing suddenly say table corrupt.. and den dere was so much trouble opening the file.. both at my laptop and km's com.. got so worried and engaged the help of pat.. and yay! thanks to him everything was back to normal after awhile.. amazing how he was online till that time.. madness.. (along wif me).. and so.. i decided i reali nided some slp if nt tt veri dae was going to study wif roy and ty.. i wldn't survive la.. i wld jus die halfway.. and so i slept frm 6 and set the alarm at 8.15.. woke up arnd dat time and continued chionging until 10.30.. when breakfast came back.. thx to km's mum! and so we stopped for breakfast.. den soon became lunch as it was rather filling.. and so we resumed work at 11.. and we worked all the way till 1.30.. and we finally sent it in.. sheesh rite..
quite a big side-track that was.. and now let's get back.. pooof! it's 2am ler! u're gonna b mad at me.. oh wells.. reali paiseh.. erms.. lets just wrap up here? hai.. altho i don't reali wan2.. hai.. but yeah.. reali quite drained already..
just thinking alot about promos.. and how much i know my stuff.. and things that i always think about.. den again.. how do i describe those.. lol..
kkaes.. it's reali time to sign off.. and yup.. go sleep.. my last post b4 promos ya.. i certainly hope so.. lol im talking to myself.. okay.. take lots of care ppl! and jiayou jiayou! all the best!! =D
(2:05 AM)