Saturday, March 22, 2008
well.. one of the most memorable things i wld ever do.. that is to move from bishan to changi airport and back to bishan again.. lyk pooof...
it began wif having to go to bishan for my piano lesson.. after which i took bus down to bishan interchange to meet andrew, isabelle and liqun.. and apparently.. all were late.. wif andrew earliest and liqun latest.. no offence! im fine wif waiting realli..
taking 53 all the way down to changi airport.. one of the biggest mistakes that anyone can make.. lyk wa sai.. super loooong lar.. by time time reach dere alr one liao ler.. hung around.. took photos wif 1T21.. wif ms teo and mr teo.. (woooooo~~) haha.. it was a great time.. signing T-shirt and cards for chrystal.. of cos we were all waiting for the main person to arrive at the airport.. which was chrystal.. going off to australia to study.. we all gave her our blessings.. well wishes.. yep.. and even yi feng was chosen by ms teo to approach chrystal.. haha.. and it was quite a show to watch..
then came the emo part where she had to check in her luggage.. and so we couldn't stay wif her anymore.. and yeah.. it was entirely emotional as she walked away.. even if it weren't emotional to u guys.. it was to me.. thoughts started to drift.......
ever experienced the feeling of having to "lose" somebody? it's in inverted commas becos u nvr really lost that someone.. u still hv tt person in ur mind.. in ur heart.. but circumstances change.. circumstances disallow for both to actually talk to each other normally again.. mistakes made.. misunderstandings piled.. all amounting to having to put behind a huge deal of memories.. especially when u hold dem so dear to ur heart.. how fragile relationships can be..
ended up leaving immediately after that.. had to rush back to bishan ler.. so went down to take cab frm the taxi stand.. and wa seh! seeing the taxi extras and the cost i got all jittery.. scared nt enough money.. den it started jamming up before eunos exit on the PIE.. told the uncle to exit at eunos..and i'll carry on my journey by bus.. ended up calling my dad to fetch me to church.. since i was jus one stop away frm my house.. i walked down one stop and waited for my dad dere.. amazingly made in time for sign language class.. they were just about to begin.. it was 2.30pm.. paiseh..
that was practically abt all for todae.. yesterday was a rather good day.. why? nt bcos it's good friday but bcos i spent time wif ppl whom im realli close to.. anyway.. was at my church good friday service in the morning before going down to dhoby gaut's carl's junior to hav lunch much as i didn want to hav it dere.. nice and super filling.. but yeah.. $$$ ka-ching.... after tt went to play pool at paradiz wif longkuan.. he's improving! totally fun.. yep.. den came a rather last min plan to meet up wif marcus, xingyun and denise.. so i took mrt up to serangoon to meet marcus first..
spent one hour roaming arnd serangoon wif him.. got myself a cup of bubble tea.. and we sat down and talked and talked abt our own sch.. yah.. den denise came along and a while later xingyun.. took bus to serangoon gardens and bought packet food frm chomp chomp and we walked to the garden to deat dere.. it was realli great time spent together.. talking wif each other.. sharing wif each other some childhood memories or memorable events that took place in our lives.. laughed at each other.. it's realli realli cool.. i reali long to hv these kinda talks wif friends.. experiencing the warmth of true friendship and all.. hai...... but time wouldn't permit for that to happen too often.. commitments.. school.. yeah.. started making our way out of serangoon gardens as xy's mother called.. and we actually met up wif her mother.. haha.. and carried on talking for abit more at the coffee shop at her block's void deck.. by the time i got home.. it was just midnight.. to me... meaningful..and every bit worth it......
~~thanks so much guys.. for being a part of my life..
(10:44 PM)
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
todae.. is a very good day! lyk what xingyun will always sae.. haha..
well.. todae started wif me having to go to sch.. and so the moment i was crossing the overhead bridge to the bus stop opp... bus 966 jus left.. and i was lyk.. crap.. hav to wait very long for the bus.. but luckily the nxt bus didn take very long to come.. amazingly.. and i was lyk very thankful.. best part was jus b4 the bus drove off.. km came running.. and he boarded the bus.. timing was quite zhun..
so we went to sch.. started wif physics lecture.. den it was 1hr break-time.. and dere i saw the girls taking out something frm a relatively big box.. and yeah.. i knew that it was a cake.. oh well.. so dey put candle.. lighted it.. and sang the song.. and thankx to andrew and kimberly.. i got cake all over my face.. sighs.. nvm.. it was nt as bad.. luckily uniform nvr kena.. anyways.. realli happy and thankful that 1T21 celebrated together wif me.. and thankx for the present frm isabelle and chrystal.. yup.. well wrapped and nice card too! hahas.. thx alot.. and so after that we had chem lecture for an hour before practically the whole class made our way down to orchard on bus 105.. yup.. realli sorry me and kkm left halfway.. but we had to meet up wif our ppl.. so yeah.. sincere apologies we didn join u all for bowling and lunch.. nonetheless hope u guys enjoyed it very much as a class.. =)
so i ended up having lunch wif km.. actually he wanted to treat me the entire meal.. but realli wasnt necessary.. anyway.. he chipped in for quite a number of presents ler.. so yeah.. told him dun need.. i redeemed my free dessert and free pasta.. and i added on combo B.. so i ended up paying $3.30 for everything.. and i must sae it's a good thing to redeem both esp. on ur bdae.. feels lyk u r given a treat.. hahas.. anyway.. was thankful that he took time off to hav lunch wif me ler.. so yup.. after which i arranged to meet my other friends.. so i started to make my way to dhoby gaut alone frm cineleisure..
okay.. upon arriving.. i jus made it in time.. however.. they were slightly late.. but it's okay.. met 2 ppl! yup.. seriously coincidental.. talked abit before we moved off.. we went play pool.. before we walked back to dhoby gaut mrt again to meet shawn and denise.. okay.. played i think 2 hours of arcade.. cos we made use of the top up 20 free another 20 offer.. and so we played and played.. completed the whole time crisis 4 game as we took turns to play after we die.. and even competed in the shooting hoops to see whose personal score was the best.. and so it was weiyang.. yup.. after which we walked over to the foodcourt at meridien hotel and had our dinner.. dat time was going to b 8 liao.. so we finished our food quickly.. cos xingyun needed to get home as early as possible.. so marcus left wif her since dey both stayed near each other.. den remaining of us went outrun.. 1 time.. before we had to start making our way back lor.. cos was getting quite late ler.. yeah.. anyway.. i'm realli thankful to hav marcus xingyun weiyang denise and shawn to spend the day wif me..yupp.. appreciate it very much..
and that was abt it for the whole of todae.. yeah.. it was rather meaningful for me.. and im realli happy.. cos it has been quite awhile since i last felt so good abt my birthdae.. for the past 2 years.. it hasn't exactly been good.. and this year.. it's realli special.. and made special by everyone around me.. and so im realli thankful to everyone.. in no order of merit.. miss violet teo! (my home tutor).. wan ting, marcus, rebecca, deborah, xingyun, matthew, chin yi, isabelle, kangming, yong ning, xuanyi, my dajie, lim min, longkuan, phoebe, rayson, emeline, carlos.. yup.. it's these ppl that contributed to making todae a happy day and memorable day for me.. of course not to forget 1S02..with shirt frm marcus xingyun weiyang denise shawn, wan ting and emeline.. 1T21.. with presents from jessie liqun km chrystal and isabelle.. a shirt wif a tie frm nano and kkm + their cellgroup.. hongbaos frm my godparents and godsis.. and parents..and bag from my sis too! and if i did miss anyone out.. im reali sorry! in any case.. im realli thankful to all these ppl around me.. it's u guys that realli help me emotionally and all.. im realli grateful to have all of u in my life.. ((:
i just wan2 b honest and frank here.. i believe thats part of life.. being honest.. if u were me.. or rather if it were your birthdae.. dere wld b a few ppl whom u somehow hope tt wld wish u birthdae.. cos u know dere's dis relatively big chance dat they wouldn't.. and deep down in ur heart.. u noe that if dey were to wish u.. it wld definitely make u happier.. esp. when these ppl or this person means alot to u.. den again.. back to my prev post.. someone can mean alot to u but do u mean that same alot to that same someone? and since u dun get the wish frm dat person.. u feel disappointed.. abit sad.. but den again.. u dun realli wan2 or wish 2 hold it against tt person.. as a matter of fact u almost instantaneously forgive that person.. but to each and everyone of us.. depending on who u r.. i believe even a simple birthdae wish frm that someone wld b wat u hope to get frm dat person..
however.. if u were going to look at the other side of the entire picture.. it's jus a day.. a date in the calendar.. it's nt really THAT important is it? perhaps it is to u.. but what if in reality.. IT'S NOT THAT IMPORTANT? i think dats the problem wif me.. i care alot abt things that i feel is important to me.. but somehow nt important at all? i dunno why.. im weird.. dun u think?
i realli dunno how to feel.. at a loss of emotions.. will jus hav to force myself not to think too much into it.. and nt allow any unimportant stuff to affect me this much..
it's time to get down to work! and serious work! honestly speaking.. haven't done much work during the entire holidays.. and yeah.. feeling rather guilty now.. oh well.. move on wif life LAR! get urself a life..
okay.. it's getting rather late.. it's actually 12:49AM now.. but oh well... gonna sleep as much as i can cos i havent been able to sleep much.. having to go to sch the past 2 days.. so yup.. signing off..
TAKE CARE PPL!
(11:49 PM)
Monday, March 10, 2008
well.. todae was completely cool.. yeah.. although i didn't hang out wif 1T21.. er.. yeah.. my sincere apologies.. i also didn expect things to turn out this way.. anyways.. if u guys were going to eat first.. and i already ate alraedy.. it will b a waste of time to actually go all e way down dere.. and watch u guys eat.. yeah.. i wouldn't b eating.. so im really sorry..
anyway.. went home after all the debates abt whether to follow and stuff.. and yar. .ended up disappointing them.. made my way home alone and started piano-ing.. and oh yar.. received a present frm jessie liqun and km.. which consisted of a rubiks cube and a pink panther cartoon.. which i dun realli know why they got that for me.. but yeah.. obviously it wasn't km's idea.. er.. and so.. stayed around in my house until 3.45.. before leaving for eunos mrt.. but turned out marcus xingyun wanting denise and weiyang were late..so i ended up waiting half an hour.. but it's cool! hahas.. it's always great to see dem.. yeah..
so we went to east coast.. settled in in mac's for awhile before we actually decided to embark on a long journey to the food centre near the lagoon.. when we arrived dere.. we started playing uno.. and denise won first followed by marcus.. den we started deciding wat to eat.. and lol.. everything we ordered.. drinks included.. we tried to make it to $36.. so tt we can split evenly.. and we even went to the extent of bargaining for a free stick of satay.. and we succeeded! hahas.. and oh yar.. one very funny part.. marcus didn't want to step on the sand.. and so he was cautiously taking step after step.. and den he made this comment which made me burst out laughing... literally.. he said " I walk from rock to rock". well u see.. so as to step on lesser sand.. he stepped each step he took on the flat piece of rock within the hawker centre compound.. when i heard that statement.. i can't help but think abt it in those kinda philosophical way or watever u call it.. those kinda impressive speech or wat.. yeah.. den i started linking to podiums.. banners.. rallies.. yeah.. i kept laughing and laughing and laughing.. sighs.. nvr laugh so hard for a long time ler.. good thing.. i guess.. (mann.. uploading of pics got problem.. hai..)
when we finally made our way back.. we passed by vs.. hahas.. and we used the toilet.. didn't realli hv much trouble wif the security guard.. hee hee.. =) yup.. shall nt elaborate on that further.. and so.. walked out to the bus stop and dats where most of us separated liao ler lor.. yup..
it was a meaningful dae for me.. esp. when xingyun marcus weiyang denise and wanting sang the birthdae song wif a rather unusual birthdae cake for me.. yup.. and of cos.. marcus' statement of walking rock to rock.. i'll rmb that for a very long time.. hahahhas.. kkaes.. signing off..
(11:58 PM)
Sunday, March 09, 2008
is it my imagination.. or do i realli look forward so much to weekends.. oh well.. it's lyk sub-consiciously desperately waiting for weekends to come.. and this weekend was a rather nice wan..
well.. saturday.. didn't know i didn hav piano lesson until arnd 11pm on friday night.. yeah.. and didn't hav sign language class too.. so in other words.. my 2 things scheduled for my saturdays were all removed.. so my entire saturday was free! hahas.. so i met up wif shawn and wan ting.. sry had to make u guys wait for me.. so we took train all the way to dhoby gaut again! so we realli need to start exploring new places we can go and new things we can do.. lyk wat i told everyone.. yup.. lets start researching ppl!
so three of us met up wif xing yun and marcus.. walked over to Mind Cafe.. yeah.. played the truth-or-dare jenga where there were seriously quite a few stupid dares.. but the truths.. some were really abit hard to ans.. lyk the wan i kena lor.. sigh.. u shld hv seen marcus balancing the block on his head and walking arnd the cafe! ahahhahs.. den played connect4.. and lord of the rings monopoly.. which we played and played until lyk quite sian lor.. end up also nvr count the money when we finished.. oh yar.. and boggle too.. and xy was complaining that we still hv to use our brains.. lol! okay.. the bill was a bomb.. yar.. didn't expect it to cost so much.. and yeah.. of cos i felt responsible.. cos it was all my idea.. luckily nvr order more stuff.. if not seriously will pok wan..
walked back to plaza sing.. met up wif weiyang.. who jus had canoeing training.. so the 6 of us went to eat our lunch at the foodcourt.. yeah.. after which we played our usual arcade.. star factory den went down to zone x.. well.. i was nvr an arcade person.. so nvr play that much lor.. come to think abt it.. all of us also nt so much of arcade ppl.. haha.. so we didn intend to hv dinner together.. altho everything ended quite abruptly.. it was still a day worth remembering.. yup.. to hav u ppl.. it's really great!! 1S02 rawks!!!!
so made my way down to the green line wif wan ting.. and we had a rather meaningful sharing session.. hahas.. and she alighted at eunos.. while i made my way to bedok.. my parents came and we went to T3 to hv dinner.. to celebrate my bdae in advance.. ate at earle's swensens.. forgot to take picture of the dish lar! presentation full marks.. quality simply superb.. yeah.. anyways.. ate until full full.. den walked arnd T3 for abit before making our way home..
although nth much realli happened todae.. i can sae smt abt todae.. i slept my longest nap ever i think.. sleep and sleep until i didn know i slept so long lar! fell asleep at arnd 1515hrs.. and i only woke up at 1845.. i was lyk woah.. tonight cannot sleep liao.. sighs..
well.. i realli dunno why.. and i want to know why.. how the mind actually works.. u just start to think abt stuff.. den u dun even wan2 think abt.. and den u jus begin to think and think.. and more things start to flow into ur mind.. and bam.. u r emo.. i can't believe im still thinking abt certain stuff.. wld somebody enlighten me as to how we can stop thinking abt certain stuff?
emotions.. probably something that amazes me the most.. lyk how it works and all.. it's complexity.. sighs... ppl sae dere's everything in the world to be happy about.. den why can't i sae.. there's everything in the world to emo abt too.. hahahhahahahhahhas......
(11:53 PM)
Friday, March 07, 2008
well.. haven't realli been blogging for some ages now.. sighs.. it has realli been an eventful week for me the past week.. and i hope life for me can only get better..
school's okay.. just that everything is getting rather fast-paced.. and dere's no time for slacking or even letting loose of our focus.. todae was the release of A level results.. ppl will b happy.. ppl will b unhappy.. it's all part and parcel of life.. it was jus lyk getting O level results for me.. and it reminded me of how i actually felt.. that moment.. that hour.. that day.. and just todae.. we were supposed to b dismissed at 12 due to the release of the A level results.. but our GP teacher held us back to get an english essay done lor.. and she didn even noe we were supposed to b dismissed at 12.. amazing.. best part.. it was our English CA1.. so it was realli quite a killer.. sighs..
and today being a friday.. most ppl dun wan2 go home.. yar.. but me.. i went home.. lol.. and slept for lyk 2 hours.. yeah.. dere wasn much for me to do outside also.. no one to hang around wif.. or rather it was too impromptu.. and so.. all last minute plans had to b abandoned..
but anyways.. this moning.. a few of us met up to hav a morning run.. ran 7 rounds around the track.. and mann.. it was quite regretful lar.. by the time we actually cleaned ourselves up and prepare for morning assembly.. everything was rather rushed.. yeah.. even during morning assembly.. i was still sweating profusely.. and yar.. perspiration just kept dripping and dripping and dripping.. anyway.. this plan was put into action after wednesday's basketball training.. yeah.. it was lyk so hiong lar.. running non-stop for almost 20 minutes.. and i mean running.. nt jogging.. den dere were a few other exercises too which realli stretched us physically.. and so the 5 of us.. were reminded of how physically unfit we were..
oh well.. just cant seem to figure out the way im thinking abt my life right now.. it's lyk everything abt me.. is in a mess.. mindsets.. mentality.. sighs.. i can only pray tt He will lead and guide me.. and help me..
well.. this march break i hope wld definitely b for me to catch up wif wat im lagging behind.. refreshing and renewing of the mind and getting prepared to face 2 years of JC life.. also pray for friends.. friendships.. family.. sighs.. realli mental breakdown liao ler...................
i just hope i can stop thinking.. i just find myself thinking and thinking and thinking.. dunno why.. i hope one day my brain will cease... HAHAHA.. that will be funny..
how much can a hug mean to someone? wats the pt if it means alot to u but means nth to the other? den again.. wats the point if someone means alot to u but u dun mean alot to that someone.. and further more.. what's the point if u r gonna care so much for someone but that someone is nt going to care for u in the least bit..
and ultimately.. WHY AM I CARING ABT such stupid stuff.. maybe.. it is what that it's realli not important.. but what i see as important to me.. hahaha.. i must be mad.. see i'm mad... BAHAHAHAHHAA.. okay.. signing off..
(11:29 PM)