well.. i honestly dunno wats wrong wif my life.. why is everyone shooing away or smt..

todae just finished both a chem and physics test.. wahh..siao liao lar..sit down dere stress and stress.. dun expect myself to do too well.. sighx.. since when did i ever expect myself to do well.. lol.. anyways.. yea.. what a week in school.. and dun u ppl think that u keep looking forward to weekends be it in the start, middle or end of the week? its lyk i really dunno why lars.. perhaps im just tired of life..

pressure..pressure and more pressure.. i just dunno how to xplain it..its smt that cannot be explained.. and its really frustrating when both sides of the pressure just seem to be acting on u hard and hard on u.. and u being the guy in the middle.. hv nth to do about it.. u try to counter 1 side of the pressure.. the other side will come down even harder on u.. and I know.. okay.. I KNOW.. that i can't handle both sides of the pressure..

besides pressures and pressures.. there are thoughts that are going on in my mind as well.. racing through my brain.. i really cant take it anymore? why..why does my life have to be lyk this.. tell me.. is ur life lyk this? no right.. so WHY IS MY LIFE LYK THIS?

why is it that more ppl and more ppl keep dao-ing me.. and i mean dao-ing.. just wat did i do tt i deserve this kinda treatment.. i probably know a few lars.. or rather i do know some.. but wat else can i do besides apologising and apologising.. there's nth else i can do...if u want things between us to be this way.. i really can't do anything about it is it?

i really feel helpless alright..HELPLESS..



woah..has been nearly a month now since i last blogged.. has been busy..camp.. sec1 registration, orientation.. poof.. nearly no breathing space lors.. hais.. even now as schools have opened again.. its lyk yea..the lazy feeling creeping into u again.. and as usual... holiday homework left hanging out of nowhere.. cannot be bothered to lift a finger.. lol.. oh well..
anyways.. just how have u guys been... i really havent been that good.. yeah.. things keep putting me down.. problems keep putting me off and everything's making me miserable.. some ppl ask me why i in school most of the time always wear a sad face to sch de.. and i don't even know how to ans them...
its as though im alone u noe.. although u hv ppl around u to care for u.. but its not as though dey even know a little bit of how u r feeling.. no one to actually properly and honestly relate to.. and sometimes.. i just feel lyk im gonna break down any time.. its just waiting to break.. honestly.. just hope u guys don't be lyk me..
this year is lyk gonna be so stressful.. everything is gonna be so stressful.. and guess wat.. every teacher that step into our class for the first time this year to start lesson hors.. will talk about o levels and prelims de lors.. is lyk they gang on us liddat.. making us feel pressured.. worried.. nervous.. and obviously.. we can't remain calm and listen to teacher after teacher reminding us of how old we are and what could be one of the most major exams in ur life..
well.. wished someone happy new year..but that someone lyk dun even know who m i.. abit disappointing lars.. especially when i considered her to be one of the closer ppl to me.. maybe there was jus some problems? forgot my no.? oh well..
and then there's another who's still on my mind.. but yet its as though im not supposed to say anything about it.. but i can't help but think yea.. i mean..what.. if u dun even know how im feeling.. den dun assume u know how im feeling... the last time u talked to me.. u told me some stuff.. but yet now..it seems as though all those stuff u told me on the last night u talked to me wasnt true at all..cos of the way u r treating me now...
a new year.. a new beginning... but will it end properly? nicely? i doubt..