Saturday, August 26, 2006
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
how many ppl on this earth actually experience this kinda love.. how many... ha... perhaps it doesn even exist between husbands and their wives... the only One who showers us with this love is Jesus Christ...
i really dunno about you alright... but lyk i have said to u for the dunno how many-th time.. personally... to me... deep down in my heart..... it really doesnt matter to me... who i am to u.... or who u might regard me as.... at the most... i wld just be sad.. tats all... if u do not regard me as wat i want u to regard me as..
the most important thing that i probably want u to know... is tt no matter wat happens... i will be there for u... whenever u might need me... hahs.. perhaps im being proud or smt.. saying that u will need me... hahah.. perhaps u don't...
the waiting... is no longer impt to me alright... dun wait for me if u have to... go on out there into the world... and look for someone who will satisfy ur criterias.. ur needs.. ur wants.. everything.. someone whom u will be always happy wif.. and everything.. just dun care about me anymore liao le lars.. ALRIGHT?
sometimes i wonder... why am i lyk tt... why am i lyk tt... and den... NO ANSWER>>...
i ask myself... if its all worth it.. worth everything tt i have done.. my answer... yes... but through how u talk to me or how u treat me... its as if telling me no.. honestly alright.. i really am mixed up right now... everything.. everything in my life.. of my life is screwing me up...
and if u have nothing to sae to me about anything... anything at all.. to me... over the phone.. sms... watsoever.. den just leave me alone.. ok..leave me alone..
i still care for u.. i really do.. but do you?
when i said leave me alone.. do u think i really want that?
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(4:57 PM)
Monday, August 21, 2006
whoa seh... left my geog textbook in the locker over the weekend... resulting in me not being able to revise and study for the CA todaee.. die liao lorr.. confirm liao le..
and den i had piano exam today!!! grade 7... gosh lars... thot i was still doing fine for the front part.. the scales and the songs... only a few mistakes here and dere... and den after that.. DISASTER!!! sight reading lyk siao liddat.. u know my left hand right... play bass clef de right.. i didn't know i was playing it one octave lower until halfway through the sight reading then i go change to one octave higher lar! i think i got zero marks liao le lar! can?! argh!!!!
den the aural also... everything just suddenly so foreign to me... and den i just had a loss for words when the examiner keep firing questions at me... sighx... die liao die liao..
wondering why i put my title as tt... sighx... welll ... i just have been thinking of the major events tt have been happening to me recently.. and wat happened at my house on thurs afternoon... i just really dunno... im so confused.. so mixed up... and wat else can i sae..................... f**ked up.. lyk wat u always sae...
i really dunno why things have turned out this way... sometimes it wld be this way and sometimes it wld be this way... i just dunno lars... i just get this feeling tt u dun hv any intention of being wif me anymore... i just dunno why okay... my feelings.. and everything... u probably wouldn't understand now... perhaps its better if u go find another guy on ur own? and jus leave me dere alone lors... get urself a better guy... a guy tt is of higher standards than me... a guy whom u wld be even happier wif.... u dun have to promise anything to me... bout waiting for me or anything... cos i dun wan to tie u down... i dun wan to tie u down anymore... go out dere into the world and find ur guy alright? the guy tts meant to be.......
as for me... i guess i'll just come to terms wif it... yeah... no need to worry about me.. i will do well.. and if u need any help or anything..yup.. jus give me a call or a sms... and i wld be happy to be of help..
meanwhile.. to my readers of my blog... thank u guys for wanting to know more about me? well.. sighx.. kk...take care ppl...
signing off...
(6:49 PM)
Saturday, August 05, 2006
poooof.... finally a little bit of breathing space... no joke mann.. its lyk a number of big "projects" one after the other.. its tiring me out... first it was SYF... that was on the first of July.. and training had already started at the end of march.. and after that was our school's speech day.. on the 22nd of july... and training started immediately after SYF opening ceremony.. and after speech day... ROD preparations went full blast... whoa.. and ROD was just yesterday...
really gonna miss my seniors mann.. dey really are a memorable lot... a few outstanding characteristics about them that make me laugh whenever i think about them.. hahas..
well.. got the post Head of Promotions.. not my ideal post.. but nvm.. i think im more or less fine with it.. yups.. very happy after yesterday.. a huge boulder released in my mind after yesterday night... a huge sigh of relief.. reached home at 10.30 last night..after having dinner from around 9.30 to ten.. yea.. had it at bedok int hawker wif chowy and kkm..
yupps.. and now coming up is my piano exam.. on the 21st of August.. whoa... hiong already arhs!!! if not fail le..
(10:10 AM)