Sunday, May 28, 2006
well.. finally had some time to post after one whole week of business and all those stuff.. head prefect elections are over.. and wow.. am i impressed by the results.. haha.. no surprise.. i didn't come in as top 3 at all.. i expected it also lors.. knowing my popularity with my school.. won't win me any of the top 3 places.. oh well..wat to do.. i'll leave it as God's will bah.. perhaps he wants me to concentrate more on my studies.. yup.. perhaps i can do more for NP.. yea..hope to do more for NP.. *nod nods*
holidays have started.. loads of homework piled up.. schedule rather messy for the hols.. sighx.. wat to do.. my life is screwed up..
results also not sae veri good de lors.. failed two subjects! believe it or not..its the first time in MY history that i flopped 2 subjects.. sighx.. im going down mann.. i am.. its time to get myself together and strive for the better..
well.. i must say that it was God's will to allow us to meet... out of the thousands of youths u cld met.. u met me.. and i really thank God for that.. =) im sorry for those times that i made u unhappy or angry.. but believe me.. i have my reasons for wanting things my way? yea.. and i wld want the best for u too.. so sometimes i sae the luo suo stuff.. its becos i care okay? yups.. i know u have been irritated by me and angry at me lately.. i really dun wish to have any conflicts wif u either.. but i hope dat u will understand.. and i myself.. will try to understand u too okaes? =) and as i have said.. u mus voice out any unhappiness u have wif me at any point in time okay? only dat way wld i be able to prevent myself from hurting u too often.. kaes? I stick closely to religious context wif u when i talk about life is becos really.. God's our refuge and strength.. we can always turn to him whenever we have troubles and problems.. and he wld help us.. He would..
time to get my act together during the june holidays.. its a well deserved break for many of us.. right? haha..yep.. but do bear in mind that june hols wld be over in a twinkling of an eye.. so make good use of it before term 3 starts alright? May God bless you all.. =)
(6:18 PM)
Sunday, May 21, 2006
mann.. after exams are even busier lors.. somehow still wish that exams still carried on lors.. but that wld be bad wun it.. somemore stress... sighx..
guess wat lors.. i failed 2 subjects!!! for the first time in my entire life.. i failed 2 subjects.. and besides.. 1 subject the failing is not sae just failed or anything lors.. its kinda far away frm the passing mark.. sighx.. i really dunno wat happened to myself.. my as well go jump down liao le..
busy with CCA and PB stuff.. head prefect elections coming in 2 days time!!! and we are supposed to give our speech tmr.. pooff.. seriously dunno if i can survive lors.. still have to plan for the farewell of the sec4s.. busy busy busy..
still have some more subjects that gonna get back on monday.. both my maths and languages.. if those never do well enough for my own expectations is lyk can go jump down liao le lorx.. seriously.. i m so disgusted at myself.. thrown all face away liao le.. =(
really looking forward for the june holidays.. haven't been sleeping much the past few weeks lar.. and i can feel so tired inside.. take nap also very difficult to get up after dat.. its lyk the feeling of wanting to sleep forever mann.. sighx... i do need a break.. a good good break.. SIGHX..
later going out for mother's day dinner.. yup..late right.. but its becos we were waiting for 1 of my family members to come back frm overseas so dat we cld go have it together.. gonna eat good food mann.. yay! hahas.. =P
okay.... finally wat ppl have been trying to sae to me made some sense to me.. i hv decided.. that even if it wasn't much of my fault.. or rather it was partially my fault.. i will still have to put the past behind and focus on a new beginning..becos no one is gonna stop and turn back to help u forward.. every1 is progressing on at a fast rate.. and i musn't lose out to them.... i have been in a slumber long enough.. its time to wake up from it.. yup..
from now on.. im gonna look at my life MORE POSITIVELY! i hope.. haha.. at least i try larhs right.. i will take the june holidays as a period of hibernation and reflection of my life the past few years.. and frm term 3 onwards... FULL STEAM AHEAD!!! wait..m i going crazy or smt.. hope not..im serious about this.. yup..
to u.. erms.. u know who u are.. i dun wish to think about wat happened for the past 9 months.. perhaps it was mostly my fault but yet i insisted so strongly that u had more fault.. im really sorrie.. just tell me if u want this friendship to carry on kae.. rmb u said its up to me? sorrie.. i really can't accept tat.. and even so if u dun wish for us to be friends anymore.. its fine with me.. cos i will respect ur decision.. ur decision will ultimately be the wan that u will be happy wif.. wish u all the best in ur future.. i'll still be here for u as ur fren.. and if u need my help in anyway can jus approach me lors kae..
(5:25 PM)
Thursday, May 11, 2006
phew... exams are over.. a huge load of my mind.. but more things coming up.. Head prefect elections.. taking over of CCAs.. sighx..its just too mind-consuming..
my papers... sighx.. dun feel lyk posting about it.. much less think about it.. sighx..
my maths still hv some confidence in it lors.. e maths lesser though.. funny isn't it.. a maths supposed to be tougher but i found e maths easier.. my languages... english was okkae.. just that chinese.. i thot i was doing it at a relatively good pace until i found out that i was somewhat quite behind time.. i cheong and cheong lyk siao lors.. i hope my answers did make sense.. sighx.. for geog.. hais.. non-stop writing for lyk 45 minutes? and den my hist was lyk confirm die wan lors.. i am fully aware i didn't make any sense in my answers.. lyk..im so dead.. hahahahha....
well.. there's some things in this world that i really cannot understand.. either im too dumb to understand or God just allows it to happen for a certain reason.. but i just dunno why! hais...
if u did wanna dao me.... and dao me for long... why did u start talking to me again?? i seriously dun understand why.. besides, u said u hv nth to lose.. just ignore me forever and nth wld happen to u right? not lyk u care about wat wld happen to me right? its not that i dun wanna care lar.. not that i wan u to ignore me forever.. but its lyk why? u sae certain stuff.. but i was told different stuff.. so who wld tell me the real truth? who can i really trust?
trust is lyk one of the most amazing thing in this world.. but at the same time it can just be broken in a matter of a decision... and once trust is lost.. its not lyk u can find it back again easily.
i know.. this matter has affected a number of ppl around me... but its not lyk i really wanted for it to happen.. i know.. im the cause of it all.. and when i sae i didn't really want it to happen.. seems lyk a cock and bull story.. sighx.. but i really didn't xpect things to turn out this way.. its just lyk a chain effect... mann.... i feel so rotten inside lars.. who wld understand how i feel right now? sighx...
sometimes life is really not as bad as some ppl think it is.. compared to ppl in other worse situations than ours.. suffering from famine or drought.. its really bad lors.. we are already considered so much better off than them.. just wanna end todae’s post wif 1 verse from the bible.. hope u guys get some inspiration from it..
<> I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
(10:14 PM)