wa.. todae woke up wif a tingling sensation in my arms.. even had a difficulty of getting myself off the bed with the support of my arms.. they are just aching like siao lar.. had to be in school by 7am in the morning to help clean up the areas in which we had our banner painting in.. had a difficult time trying to scrub off the paint using the metal scrubbers and thinner.. it just wouldn't come off no matter how hard u try.. just had to give up after a while.. painted a small portion of the wall.. covering up the traces of paint left behind.. afterwhich barrack 2 which is our barrack called the barrack members for a meeting.. however only 3 turned up.. how great can our attendance get anywae.. thot them the cheers which we created and gave them a list of those cheers.. telling them about our plan for the skit.. noticed that the bookshop was open and i asked my father to come down to sch to bring the money for the books along.. got the necessary stuff and he fetched me and my fren to bedok interchange where we took a bus to tampines where we had lunch at a nearby coffee shop near his house.. went to play basketball and soccer then came up to his house again to play dai di.. otherwise known as big 2.. den stayed at his house until 6.45pm b4 i made my way home.. the trip home was amazingly short.. perhaps i was kept preoccupied bah.. thanks.. then was slightly late for Tong Xin Yuan.. had dinner then after that make my way home together wif my parents and sister.. now feeling kinda drained out from the past 3 days of waking up so early.. sian.. hais..............................



well.. too busy to blog for the past few days.. my apologies.. yesterdae was the first day of banner painting.. had to be in school by 6.30am to settle the length of banner and had to make the ID bands.. it was really a disaster the first day.. where initially i thot we were doing quite well when none of the seniors come and "ka jiao" us.. but i was proven wrong after lunch.. shortage of manpower had led to us being outnumbered by them.. ppl were being caught alone out of our banner painting area.. things were being "kouped" like free.. until i and another guy was left to guard our banner and our belongings.. sighx.. wat a horrible sight.. todae was slightly better.. seniors weren't that unreasonable too us.. and we were dismissed by 2.30.. had alredy finished up both our banner and flag and then came the one whistle blow for all of us to fall in.. all of us were happy when the camp chief announced to us that there wouldn't be banner painting tmr as all the barracks have finished both the banner and the flag.. however BLs and ABLs had to come back to school tmr to clean up the area in which we painted in.. i must sae that we really did make a mess out of the place.. spilling paint here and there.. sighx, so unsightly.. honestly, i also dun find our banner pleasing to the eye.. kinda not very well done.. but wat to do.. desperate due to lack of manpower.. wanna thank those who took their time off to come down and help us out.. otherwise i think our barrack die liao le.. out of those two days.. i must have did over eighty push-ups already.. fifty to redeem a guy who kena "kouped".. thirty for spilling a big blot of paint on our area... now my arms are aching like siao larhx.. HAIS..



sorry wasn't able to blog for the past 2 days.. wasn't able to come online due to some circumstances.. well..todae i woke up at 9 in the morning.. earlier than wat i expected to wake up at.. my mother just kept nagging at me and i had no choice but to get myself up.. had breakfast brought home from outside.. one packet of prawn mee and one packet of fishball noodle was on the table.. i went to eat the fishball noodle first.. then my mother noticed that i was eating the fishball noodle then she just shouted at me saying that i ate the wrong wan.. i was wondering was there even a right or wrong.. then i just switched back to eating back the prawn mee lorx.. hais.. then had to mop the entire house todae after breakfast.. cleared some parts of my room with the help of my mother.. watched EPL Goals on channel 5 at noon.. went to grandma's house for lunch.. came back to have tuition from 2 to 4.. and then carried on mopping the last 2 rooms of the house before coming online.. then later gonna go out for dinner.. all the end-of-year camp stuff weighing on my mind.. just feeling so "worryful".. also feeling like a pair of chopsticks whereby i am looked for when needed and when not needed will just be put aside.. sighx.. well.. and once its all rotten and spoilt it will just be replaced eventually.....



well.. todae woke up at around 8 plus.. was supposed to have tuition at 9am in the morning.. however it got pushed back to 10.30.. thus spoiling some of my plans also.. went to meet up my fren at the void deck of his house then went to a nearby coffee shop to eat fried rice which he recommended.. not a bad recommendation at all.. enjoyed it wif the accompaniment of green chilli.. yup.. after which we went back to his house play a bit of pinball as his computer had no internet connection or graphics hardware.. so din have any games at all.. sighx.. then went to drop by at arcade.. finally managed to complete outrun.. after 2 games.. whew.. was wondering when wld we be able to complete again.. then went to play basketball and soccer.. played the games we invented again and i practised heading from crosses.. or rather receiving crosses from him.. not a bad training session that.. then went back to his house and rest a while before making my way to my grandma's house for dinner.. watched Tong Xin Yuan at the same time.. then came back home lorx.. ironed 6 shirts, all of which were my father's.. then folded some clothes and put them in the respective cupboards.. then managed to come online.. then now playing wif my fren Jon Yeo chess.. won 1 lost 1.. playing tie-breaker now.. not a bad opponent i must sae.. but HE TAKES TOO LONG TO MOVE!!! ( hope u read this mann j.yeo) gonna hv a sian dae tmr.. sighx.. wat 2 do.. life's like this..



spent the entire day at home todae.. sian until siao lar.. actually wanted to go for class chalet wan.. but due to some unforseen circumstances i decided not to go.. went to cheong yahoo chess.. ended up winning and losing alternatively.. but in the very end my rating still dropped quite drastically.. sighx.. still have loads of improvement to be made.. then my fren came over to my house to blog cos his dial up connection was down.. poor him.. after re-formatting his computer resulted in so many problems.... went down to play badminton until 6 before we took the same bus to another place.. i alighted first to go to my grandmother's house for dinner while he took the bus all the way to Tampines Interchange.. my parents however went to meet up wif my sis @ suntec city to do some shopping.. after watching Tong Xin Yuan finish then i made my way home by myself again.. sighx... yup..thats about all.. kinda sian rite.. i doubt anyone will want to live my kind of life..

its not the years in your life that matters.. its the life in your years that matters most.....



todae was kinda like a waste of time.. spent practically the entire day outside.. reached school at 6.30 am to assemble at the canteen.. met up wif a few other seniors to take mrt to queenstown.. walked quite a distance from the mrt station to our destination.. had lunch provided for us by the Police Academy.. not sae very good but not sae very bad either.. after that had a series of modular lessons afterwhich we had our Civil Defence Proficiency Badge Test.. not very confident of passing.. but all rite lar.. still got some confidence in myself.. however my fren was like so not confident of himself and kept muttering "die liao le la".. oh well.. after the course we took mrt back to Bedok where we had dinner at the hawker centre.. my fren and i shared a plate of chinese rojak (sponsored by him).. quite nice lar.. but very unhealthy due to all the peanut bits.. haha.. after that we made our own way home lorx.. came back and watched Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.. was already in the midst of doing smt but upon receiving a sms from a fren.. i had to find another way to carry out that thing.. lol.. now i m gonna do another fren's blog for him as he doesn't know how to do.. perhaps can teach him one day so that he can change by himself in the future liao le lorx.. yup..



woke up at 8.45am todae.. feeling so lethargic and tired.. took me quite some while to get myself out of the bed.. went to brush up and had 2 slices of cake for breakfast.. went to church.. went shopping at takashimaya after that.. had a good meal of lunch there and went to look around at the singtel fair.. after some shopping.. we left takashimaya at around 5 and made our way home.. not long after we gone home, both my parents and my sister went to nap while i was the only wan in the house awake.. went to my grandma's house for dinner as usual and played some of my 3 year old cousin's toys.. haha..still hav yet to grow up hors.. then came back and started on some homework.. feeling pressured as the days of the holidays pass by.. well.. its time to get serious again.. holidays will be over in a twinkling of an eye..........



todae was generally fun.. went for piano lesson in the morning.. and joined my frens to play basketball and soccer after that.. was supposed to join my parents to have lunch wif my grand-aunt and grand-uncle.. but i din want to stay there and make myself useless.. so after basketball and soccer.. went back up to his house to change clothes and played a few games of bridge before we had lunch at kfc.. afterwhich we went to have some fun first before buying stuff at NTUC.. we then went to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.. it was generally nice but it was less thrilling than the rest.. expected something of the same standard or perhaps even better but i was disappointed.. had dinner together wif 4 other friends too and went back to a fren's house which was just a stone's throw away.. won 3 games out of 3 of dai di.. haha.. but the others say i tyco only.. so wateva lorx.. stayed at his house till 10.30pm.. the latest tat i hv ever been to his house until.. poor him.. his com kena virus.. cannot use.. so he's now feeling so depressed about having no computer to use.. well.. thats all that happened todae..



the best night i ever had at the camp was last night.. managed to sleep quite well finally.. perhaps because the thought of wanting to go back home was weighing on my mind ba.. the instructor of our camp had also ordered us to change t-shirts wif the guy next to us and he swopped all our plastic bags such that we had to go back to sch and sort out all our stuff.. after breakfast we were being showed the various Orang Asli's traps designed to trap animals in the forest..they were rather innovative and creative as to how the rope is able to release the tension of the trigger to cause the cage to fall on the animal.. afterwhich we had nasi lemak for lunch and area cleaning for the entire camp.. the trip to the fruits plantation was cancelled for don't know wat reason but that really lightened everyone's mood.. on the way back we cheered all the way from malaysia back to school and everyone's mood was just so high.. went back to school and received our certificate of participation for the camp and of course our red shirt which makes us JLs now.. we also sorted out our T-shirts which were messed up on our last day of camp.. it was relatively easy finding back our shirts as we clearly remembered who we swopped wif and certain plastic bags stood out from the rest.. so.. yup.. and throughout the entire camp there was this egg challenge whereby teams are given 3 eggs to keep intact and prevent them from breaking.. breaking them wld result in the loss of points.. our team won for the first 3 days but the last day was not taken into consideration as the egg challenge was put on hold.. yup.. and i managed to keep the egg safe wif me for one night.. sacrificing some of my sleep time.. and the next night i just had to pass it on to someone else otherwise i wouldn't be able to sleep properly again.. i find the camp quite interesting, fun-packed and so on and forth.. although there were times when we did smt wrong and we were made to do 60 over green bottles to atone for our mistakes.. but i guess this is all part and parcel of learning and this can instill a greater sense of responsibility and discipline in u..



again i wasn't able to sleep well last night.. woke up in the middle of the night feeling cold and an urge of wanting to go to the toilet just came out of the blue.. and it was raining too.. which made leaving our bunks to go to the toilet more difficult although the toilet was quite a short distance away from our bunks.. tried to wake the guy on my right to accompany me to the toilet ( buddy system u noe ) but to no avail.. din want to bother the guy on my left either.. so i had no choice i made my way to the toilet all by my own.. couldn't stand the intense coldness and decided to use my sleeping bag.. din want to use it last night as it was rather troublesome to fold it up again.. and it wasn't long before i had to wake up again to give myself enough time to change and brush up before falling in.. didn't have PT cos our seniors wanted us to have sufficient rest for the mountain climb later on in the morning.. we packed our backpacks wif the stuff instructed to bring and had breakfast in the eating area which was a separate building from our bunks.. packed our lunches in lunch boxes which wld be consumed at the summit of Gunung Panti.. upon alighting from the bus, we still had to walk a long distance in to the foot of the mountain.. the road was rather rocky and unsteady and certain plants along the way had sharp thorns and surfaces.. we just had to brush past them as the route was rather narrow.. we cld only travel in single file.. there was a point in time whereby we reached a rock wall.. and from our observation we could notice an angle of elevation of 80 degrees.. even had to climb up wif the assistance of a rope.. when we finally reached the summit which took us nearly 3 hours.. there was a breath-taking view from the summit and we did a cheer at the summit before setting off again to move down the mountain.. lunch up there could never have been better wif our stomachs hungry, a breath-taking view in front of us.. and the natural wind blowing in our face.. gone back down the mountain wif the same route.. and walked all the way out again to take a bus back to the river point where we take back the boat to the campsite.. the trip was rather tiring and boring.. afterwhich we had our campfire.. just when it was about our team's turn to perform it just started raining heavily and we were made to move into the eating area to carry on wif the campfire performance.. afterwhich we had supper and soon enough it was time for lights out..



din manage to sleep really well last night.. not used to the bed and surroundings at all.. it started to become really cold in the middle of the night until i was freezing.. had PT the first thing in the morning afterwhich was breakfast.. then it was our turn to do the water obstacle challenge.. ropes were being tied from one place to another.. and we had to use the help of other ropes to get our way across.. i suppose this was the point where our team.. team 1 bonded really much cos we encouraged our team members across by cheering for them.. that was when my watch spoiled too.. sighx.. then followed washing up and lunch.. we were made to do a group presentation on the day's activities and lessons learnt with regards to leadership.. our team did fairly well although it was rather short.. we were supposed to have outdoor cooking after that but the weather spoilt some of our plans.. it started to rain heavily and we were forced to stay indoors.. cooking our own dishes using a stove in the kitchen of the camp site.. each group were given one whole chicken being cut up into pieces and various kinds of ingredients.. our team decided on doing fried chicken.. following the recipe of one of his relatives.. it turned out relatively well and we won the title of best decorated dish.. the decoration was a banana wif matches stuck into if for the eyes and backside and the leaves for the wings.. it totally looked like a firefly.. had our own chicken for dinner and rice and afterwhich was a briefing for the Gunung Panti Trek (Panti Hill) . had our teachers talk to us about the importance of leadership and what it really means to lead and the consequences often faced by leaders and how we should deal wif them.. had supper and we were off to sleep..



wasn't able to sleep well last night with the activities of the camp weighing on my mind.. packed some final stuff and set off for school wif all the stuff ready.. assembled at the foyer area.. some ppl alredy there liao le.. gathered according to our groups and took attendance and soon enough we were on our way to Kota Tinggi.. upon arriving at our destination.. we alighted from the bus and had to take a boat ride across a river to the campsite.. that was where i thought it was sorta like Harry Potter at the start of every year going to Hogwarts.. learnt how to make our own bunks wif the help of spars and the standard of our beds depended on how well we managed to stretch the bunk sheet.. then we split into 2 main groups.. one wld go for the Swampforest trek and the other the water obstacle challenge.. afterwhich the next day the 2 groups will swap activities.. we went for the swampforest trek first and the weather was kind enough to us.. it didn't rain.. and the ground wasn't wet either so there was a lower possiblity of getting leeched by the leeches.. we were brought around the forest by a instructor and we arrived back at the campsite around 5plus to 6.. cleaned our shoes up, had our baths and then was dinner.. frankly the food there was not bad.. the cook was an Orang Asli lady.. after dinner we had a firefly cruise along the river which we crossed over to the campsite and we were also being showed the various haunted places along the river.. came back and had a singing session wif the camp chief as he played the guitar and we sang along wif him wif the help of a songbook which belonged to the campsite.. really enjoyed the singing session as we sung the old classics.. like Country Road and Welcome to the Hotel In California.. yeah.. the ambience was just too overwhelming.. then we had supper and soon enough the first day at camp was over..



well.. todae woke up at 6.45am.. wif LTC weighing on my mind.. reached school at 7.20am and was asked to assist in the pitching of 2 tents.. we pitched both of them at a corner of the field for the campcraft team later to observe and wateva wateva.. then we had barrack leader training until 9.45.. i had to leave at 9.45 cos i had LTC meeting at 10.. changed into sch u.. LTC meeting ended at 12.30.. had lunch in school and left school at 12.45.. reached home and lazed around.. just didn't feel like doing anything except spending time online and doing necessary stuff.. went to my grandma's house for dinner as usual.. came back feeling so down and miserable.. packing my bag for LTC.. wat 2 do.. life is full of trials and tribulations.. i dunno wats gonna happen to me in m'sia.. but i trust that God will keep me in his care as long as i trust in him.. will relate to y'all wat happened at LTC.. yup.. take care guys.. *sniff sniff*.. signing off..



well.. nothing much happened todae.. except that i m feeling kinda left out.. feel that everyone is keeping a distance from me.. i dunno why.. perhaps its my own imagination.. woke up at 8 plus.. had bread from bread talk for breakfast.. after which i lazed around and read newspaper.. left house around 10 for church.. todae had youth worship.. enjoyed worship todae.. then we went to have lunch at serangoon gardens wif our church friends.. ordered from a chicken rice stall.. then that stall hor.. a bit sork sork wan.. we ordered chicken rice for 2.. and 2 plates of chicken rice.. and one bowl of chicken porridge.. then the chicken porridge took so long to come.. went to make some noise then it came.. then in came 2 plates of rice without chicken.. so we carried on waiting for chicken.. but then no chicken came.. then went to make somemore noise.. then guess wat happened.. 4 more plates of rice came in.. then we were shocked lar.. then somemore never give us back our change.. sighx.. wat a chicken rice stall.. went to have my hair cut.. now it looks kinda weird on me.. then went to my grandma's house for dinner then came back home to watch some tv and iron my clothes @ the same time.. then i decided to come online.. sighx..thats about all.. 2 more days to LTC.. i m just so no confidence in myself now.. dunno if i will even survive the camp...... :'(



sorry for not being able to blog yesterday.. just wasn't in the mood yesterday.. something happened to me.. but since its over.. i dun wish to rake up the past.. well..today was generally fine.. i woke up at nine plus to have breakfast which my dad brought back for me.. it was noodles from a nearby coffee shop.. after having my breakfast.. i lied back down on my bed and dozed off.. woke up at the wheareabouts of 12.. watched a bit of tv and folded some clothes at the same time.. afterwhich i was made to vacuum the floors of my room and my sister's room.. then i went to have a bath and we made our way to my grandma's house for lunch.. reached back home at 2 and waited for my tuition teacher to arrive.. she arrived at 2.40.. and had tuition till 4.40 lorx.. then talked on the fone wif my fren for a while.. went to watch tv.. until 6 plus we went to a nearby food centre to have dinner and my parents brought me and my sis home while they went out to shop.. attempted to change my blogskin but to no avail.. dunno why.. it still remained the same.. oh well.. afterwhich my parents brought back supper from mac's.. yup.. thats about all..



what a depressing day........

todae woke up around 9 plus.. without having a thought of how to spend my entire day.. weird isn't it.. not having a hoot of wat i m intending to do.. was supposed to have tuition at 10am in the morning.. however my tutor called at around 9.45 that he had to push it back one hour later to 11am.. well.. this actually spoilt some of the plans i had later on.. sorry for waking someone up.. but it was kinda late already.. din expect u to still be asleep.. but still.. a thousand apologies.. well then tuition ended at 1pm.. after which i had my lunch at home (my grandma brought it) and then i left home for my friend's house.. bus journey was so much faster than usual.. perhaps because i was on the phone.. when arrived at my friend's house.. we first got into a serious discussion.. after which he showed me a replay on FIFA 2005.. so ridiculous la.. an own-goal.. lolx.. then we played a few games of FIFA and we left to go play arcade at CS.. played 2 games of outrun.. won 1 lost 1.. ha.. as usual..everytime liddat wan.. after which it started raining over the lands of tampines.. we were kinda trapped at CS lorr.. bought a cup of grass jelly.. afterwhich i remembered i should have bought iced milo instead.. must get into the likes of wanting to drink milo ya.. ;) then the rain got lesser and we just walked in the rain lorx.. and the rain totally spoilt the mood of my fren la.. cos he was intending to do smt later but then the rain spoilt his plans.. and he was very angry and irritated.. in the end never got wat he intended to do lorr.. went back to his house.. went online.. after which he was totally glued to the com because something happened online.. ya.. then after which i was kinda neglected by him being a visitor to his house.. sighx.. well.. never mind.. its like somethings are important and some things are not.. so ya.. just have to accept that person as to how he prioritise lorr.. i neglected someone too.. and i really wanna apologise.. i didn't mean to.... Everyone doesn't wish to make enemies wif anyone.. thats kinda understood.. who likes to make enemies? why not make a fren instead of an enemy right... well.. as LTC draws nearer.. i really dunno how m i gonna face that fact.. hais...

disheartened... discouraged... disapproved...



what a boring day!

i can't believe i spent practically the entire day at home todae! woke up at around 9 plus.. and then played yahoo chess.. had some losses and wins here and there.. after which went offline..watched a bit of tv.. but it was boring so not even 10 min i switched it off.. went to have lunch.. (my grandma brought it) and then had a bath.. came out and played some piano.. hais.. thats about all la.. then later gonna go to my piano teacher's house to hav piano lesson.. afterwhich will go direct to my grandma's house to have dinner as usual.. sighx.. it seems like we are drifting further apart.. izzit really want u claim it to be? or is it an illusionary image on my part? i really dunno and i need someone to enlighten me.. having bad premonitions about LTC.. never ever camped overseas before la.. not knowing wats gonna happen to u within that period of four days.. oh ya.. and last night i dreamt a beautiful dream.. long time never dream liao le.. i was a substitute in my soccer team.. then after 90 mins of gameplay, the match went to extra time.. i was brought onto the pitch to take a free kick on the edge of the penalty area.. i looked at the top corner of the goalpost and saw my manager's desperate face floating at the top corner.. wanting to get the winning goal.. without any further hesitation, i rammed the ball into his "face" but just as the ball reached the goal-line, the "face" vanished and it was a goal!! so cool la.. never dream liddat before.. i guess my holidays are really ruined liao le.. have preparations to make for the end of year camp cos i m given some responsibilities to fulfill as a assistant barrack leader.. and now my barrack leader also away on another camp la.. called the CIC.. Camp Instructors Course.. left me the ABL to do it all alone.. =( have to design ur own cheers la.. come up wif a barrack motto la.. give your barrack a name la.. design our barrack banner and flags.. call all our barrack members up and notify them of the banner painting dates la.. still need to get materials for the banner painting although we got some of them already.. then 15th to 18th Nov is LTC.. then after that even busier wif the preparations for the camp.. then camp 5th -7th Dec.. after which gonna go overseas from 11th to 18th Dec.. come back.. then at least got some breathing space.. one week to christmas.. and soon enough 2006 come liao le.. its kinda scary how time flies so fast.. especially when u look back at one year.. all the fun u had wif ur class... and the thought of having to leave them now is just so painful.. some leave for IP.. others will still remain in VS.. but shurely will be separated.. i guess its all inevitable bah.. i dunno what makes me think that we are drifting further apart.. perhaps its the decrease of the communication between one another bah.. hais.. looking back @ the number of really good friends i have.. doesn't seem alot.. and now with me & another guy still not being able to meet ends wif one another.. i really dunno wats gonna happen to that friendship.. dun even wish to think about it.. but i can't totally ignore that we have yet to bury the hatchet.. i m at a loss.. sometimes after thinking of all those worries that may pull ur confidence level down and ur mood down.. u just wanna break up and cry.. but who's here to lend me a shoulder to cry on.. who's gonna listen to all my troubles? dun wish 2 be too religious here.. yea.. i can only commit them into God's hands..

abandoned... neglected... ignored...



woke up @ 8 am todae.. had pre-made pizza for breakfast.. later going out wif a few other BLs and ABLs to go shop for camp stuff.. apparently my NCO stated that one of the shops to get the materials was opposite my house.. so last night before coming online i went to check out the shops in the vicinity.. given a few descriptions i think i found the shop, but unsure of that was the wan because it was closed already.. hais.. sadly the release of the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire movie is during my camp.. so u guys will hv to just go ahead without me lorr..... what i could have done i have all done it.. i leave the rest into God's hands......



hais..todae woke up at 6.50am.. then waited for my father to come home from fetching my mother and sister to school then he fetch me to sch again.. reached school around 7.50am.. discussed about the things necessary for end of year camp with my fellow BLs and ABLs.. afterwhich we were dismissed around 9.45am.. then came to my fren's house to blog lorr.. apologise for not blogging on saturday.. i m facing some restrictions wif using the computer in my room.. SIGHX... so..dunno if tonite can come online again.. sighx... hais.. haiz.. gonna change passport photo later.. cos the photo so outdated liao le.. when i was 7 yrs old wan la! my seniors saw also laugh at me.. hais..

i have learnt to let go...........



todae woke up at 9.45.. was late for church by 10 mins.. came back home from church to have lunch at home.. read comics till 3.15 and napped until 5.30.. watched tv from then till around 6.40.. left for my grandma's house to have dinner and came home to watch Daredevil until 9.30 and then came online till now.. yea.. thats all..

feigning ignorance



todae woke up at 6.45.. then went for BLIT again.. and we found out who were the Barrack Leaders and Assistants liao le.. i m an assistant of barrack 2.. but when i talked to another NCO after training, he said he would want to make some changes cos it was unfair for the BLs to choose the ABLs.. not sure though wats really gonna happen though.. due to O levels in school and bad weather we were dismissed earlier.. around 10 liddat.. stayed in school till around 1... then left for MP.. stayed there till around 2 pm.. left MP library and went to friend's house and played basketball and soccer.. invented 2 new games.. one involved wif a soccer ball and one invented wif involved with a basketball.. kinda fun lorr.. yea..

denying the factors of fate...



this morning woke up at 8.. went for piano lesson at 9-10.. and i somehow thought i was crazy in there.. i kept laughing for no particular reason.. afterwhich i came home and napped from 11-1.. so shuang la.. i would not have woken up if not for the nagging frm my mother.. then when i woke up that time is like really feel like wanna go sleep again lorr.. then i purposefully pull a long face during lunchtime.. haha.. then after lunch still had to clean up the table and clear the rubbish.. ate some grapes and read a Archie comic book.. have yet to finish though.. then i was made to vacuum my room, my sister's room and my parents' room... sighx.. thinking about friendship.. how it came about.. and how it should be cherished.. but it also seems pointless to pursue something which will never be in ur reach.. just feeling so helpless of how i should carry on facing this..



ok.. another boring day i had at home.. spending my entire day at home.. the only shiok thing was that i woke up close to 10.. slept at around 12.30 lorx.. unable to sleep.. thoughts bombarding my mind.. had lunch wif all the members in my family.. had tuition from 2.30 to 4.30.. and now i m online without anything to do.. jus when i was switching on the com.. i realised my father put a password on it.. so my time on the computer wld be very controlled and limited.. sorries.. oh ya and during lunch i had a misunderstanding wif my mother.. but apparently she doesn't quite noe wats the misunderstanding about so i just kept quiet.. haha.. so funny lorr.. i thought she was spying on me.. hais.. recently i have been thinking about how it wld be like if i have followed my self-made policy.. it definitely makes matters much easier for me.. however.. i also thought of the consequences if i did follow my self-made policy.. well.. who in this world would have ever considered of staying single? just look at the numerous number of problems couples and couples-to-be are having.. hais.. all i want now.......................



todae was so so.. BLIT again.. had the BL interview too.. the atmosphere in the room was so tense la.. sigh.. then after training played some soccer.. had lunch.. stayed back until 2 for LTC meeting.. which lasted till 4.50... after that went to plae soccer again.. kena cramp after a while then stopped playing.. hung around and left school at 6.20.. went home for dinner.. watched tv at the same time.. came online at 8.30.. yea.. and now i m like so depressed.. i really dunno how to xplain the state i m in now lorr.. i m lyke so helpless.. with no one to talk to.. no one to understand my pains and helplessness.. in this case.. i m on the brink of wanting to abide by my old policy again.. i think its still the best la.. wun get wronged.. wun get misunderstood.. BUT!!! i dun believe this is the only way to clear things up.. but after so much thought put into it.. i found the root of the problem la.. and the only way to settle the root of the problem is to abide by my self-made policy... yea.. i m jus a screwed up person la.. listening to only one person's point of view is useless.. u will hv to see the majority.. as it is now.. everyone is against me.. my life...... my life...... my life......



another boring day i had.. spent the entire day at home la!!! can die lorr.. woke up at close to 10.. went back to sleep at 11 plus.. i was asked to step out of my house 2 times todae lorr.. and not sae to my benefit liddat.. first was to pick up something my mother dropped 9 storeys down.. the other was to go opposite of my house to buy a slice of pineapple.. A S-L-I-C-E.. can u imagine?? walk all the way there.. jus to get a slice of pineapple.. sighx.. i practically whiled away my afternoon.. napping.. then woke up and read wu gui ye shang wang.. at least the story is getting more and more interesting.. and had a game of chess with my mother.. i won.. hee heex.. long time since i won her liao le.. and watched the last one hour or so of Bend it Like Beckham and came online... sian.. tmr hv Barrack Leader Interviewee Training (BLIT) till 10 and then Barrack Leader Interview (BLI) till 12.. stay back for 2 hours till LTC meeting at 2 till dunno wat time.. sighx... siandededed la..